Ok... like... this is weird... I'm basicly in my wardrobe right now.... umm... my "LOVELY" grandmother... last night took my laptop in her room... why...? cuz "normal kids don't stay awake till 3 am..." what I said was "NO! Normal kids MY AGE don't stay BEFORE 3 am..." which is true but she still took my laptop and before she went out of my room I said "I can stay awake without my laptop you know..." but she just slamed the door and went back to sleep with my laptop in her room... and I stood up awake untill 5 am... and slept till 2 pm today... ^^
now we're basicly not talking to eachother... but I prefer the things this way... but the problem is she told my dad... and he said...
"You will go to bed early!" I answered " WTF !? NO WAY!?" he said " Believe me there is a way... goodnight... and remember... go to bed EARLY!" and then he went to his apartment... and now... I've put some toys in my bed under the blanket and it looks like I'm in bed sleeping... and all the cables for the battery of my laptop and my Internet are under the rug till my wardrobe... and yeah... I'm just sittin'here.. in my wardrobe in the darkess... litening to my fav group - RED... and chattin with my frs xD it's really fun xDD but I don't wish it to any of you xDD cuz I'm also kind of suffocating cuz of the heat...
yup... I'm a child with problems... I wish I could live with my mom... but I can't... my only hope now... is to move to another house with my friends after a year or two... I can't take the life with these people anymore... and that has nothing to do with takig my laptop for the rest of the night or anything...



~whuteveer...
now I know I don't submit very often... infact I almost don't submit anything at all... and there are some people who say they want me to submit more often... well... I'm really sorry... I don't think I could do that... well... first of all.. many of you learn at art schools... I don't... and I never will... my art teacher is an artist... she has her own gallery and stuff... and one day we were in class... and she came to me to see what I'm drawing and she said... "stop... stop drawing... you can finish it at home... go help the other I have a picture to finish..."
I said ok.. at the end of the school hour she told me to go outside cuz she wanted to speak with me... she told me that she wants me to go to every saturday to go draw with her class from 10 am till 2 pm... I said I'll think about it... I didn't go... I'll start going next year with a friend if mine from class who can also draw well... but after time she told the whole class something... she told us that if we want to draw we should start seeing her every sunday like her own art class... but to remember not to go to an art school because art is only a hobby and it would be only a waste of time if we go to an art school... because we can learn drawing in private lessons with someone and become an artist... but it would be very hard to fiind a job...
so I'll never go to an art school or something... and I really don't have enough time to draw things I can submit... maybe when I buy an ipad I'll draw more... but till then... I'll barely submit... it just takes me too much time and I'm not even a famous artist... I never like the things I draw and the fact that I don't get comments or faves... I feel rejected and I feel like a bad artist... so that's why I don't submit much...


~Tnx dear reader for reading my bullshits... I'm sorry if there are misstakes... I'm sure there are... but It's 1:42 am and I've had a hard day... so I didn't check for mistakes... all I want to say in the end of this journal is - if don't think I'm useless... comment with (: it won't take you too much time will it...? thank you again for reading